World Bike Girl

4 weeks ago

Fuck it. These are the two words that have preceded the extraordinary things I've accomplished in my life. Fck it. I'm in Iran racing for the National Team. Fck it. I'm cycling the world solo. Fck it. I'm writing a book.

Now I'm saying it again. Fck it.

Sorry for the language, it's highly unusual on here, but it's been one of those days where I ended up in my MP's office, in tears, having had enough. Also, genuinely these are the words that come before I do anything big! lol

Those of you who've followed this page for some time, will likely have been waiting through all my silence last year ... wondering what would come next ... knowing something would come next ... because my heart is that of a warrior for those who have no voice, whether that be animal or human.

I lost my blogs for many months last year and with them, I lost my voice. I have them back but still, I haven't blogged. Why not?

Well, I have a boyfriend now and I was scared.

At first, I was scared he would see me differently, but he sees me for who I am ... Ishbel. He accepts me completely and is so supportive of me using my biography for social change.

Then I was scared I would be judged by the new people coming into my life through him; his friends; his family. Scared they'd think 'wow what's he doing going out with that fruit loop'.

But his family are amazing and the friends I've met are too.

So fck it. I'm over it now. This is way bigger than me. People are dying because of the system. I have to speak out. I have to connect with others and build a network because as individuals, our voice is a whisper but together our voices become a roar. We want equality. We need equality.

I am starting up my blog again and I am publishing everything about my mental health journey. I want to connect with others and hear your stories in confidence, not just about NHS health care, but also engagement with local councils, social work and the department for work and pensions. If you want to go one step further and contribute, I can offer a platform for you to share your experiences anonymously. I can give you the space and support to allow your voice to be heard in a safe way.

We have to stand up.

Things need to change.

Nothing will change if we don't find our voice and stand united.

Ishbel Holmes xxx ... See MoreSee Less

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World Bike Girl is with Ishbel Holmes.

1 month ago

Happy New Year everyone! 19 days late!

Miss you all so much ... and miss our interaction ... I've not quite managed to get back on social media like I used to be and the way I'd like to.

Maria is doing fine and lapping up life as a home dog rather than a street dog. She's like my shadow ... or maybe my stalker lol She finally said goodbye to one of her last behaviours from the streets ... she is able to play with most dogs without turning on them. She really enjoys being chased by dogs lol It's great seeing her so free from her past ... wish I was able to do the same as my dog.

I have a meeting with my MSP this week regarding the atrocious healthcare I received last year from Forth Valley NHS. It's important to me to use my experiences to make the world a better place around me or what's the point of so much pain. I'm moving on with my life ... not the way it was before but in a new way. Happiness is a choice ... it's a mindset regardless of what is outside of me.

I want to say thank you to everyone on here who reached out and helped me last year and for waiting patiently for me to re-engage. We've shared so much over the last year's I may not be posting but I think of you all the time.

All my love

Always and forever

Ishbel xxx

P.s ... Gareth and Elaine in Turkey ... I love you with all my heart and think of you every day ... thank you for everything XXX ... See MoreSee Less

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